A Challenge to Ignite My Spark: Day 1

So while I'm searching for a hobby, a direction, a purpose, I thought I would attempt a 30 Day Blog Challenge to get my creative writing juices flowing.  It's frivolous and shallow I'm sure but it will get me in the habit of writing every day and thinking about things other than work, Brandon, and TV.  So here goes:



Day 1: My Current RelationshipAmazing.  Blessed.  Fulfilling.  Complete.  Those are just a few of the words that describe the way I feel with Brandon. 

He is everything I've ever wanted and deserved and never thought I'd get.  I have ALWAYS given more than I've gotten in return in relationships, it was my trademark.  I overcompensated for my low self-esteem by trying to give and give and give until there was none of me left.  He found me when I was broken into a million pieces and doubting myself.  He showed me what it meant to love unconditionally, to be myself completely and be loved for it.  He showed me my true self and that someone would love me for it. 

Our relationship started out with my heartbreak and his cockiness and promises to "take it slow", but soon we realized that there is no way to slow down when it's right and it's true.  We said "I love you" two weeks in and moved in together (my first time living with someone) a month later. 

To be fair, we have definitely had our challenges.  He has a 3 year old little girl named Molly.  Now as bad as this sounds, I don't like kids.  Sure they are fine for a little while but I never planned on having any of my own, I'm entirely too selfish!  But obviously she came as part of the package and I had to reach deep down inside to find any morsel of mommy gene that I previously thought completely absent from my genetic make-up.  It has been, by far, our biggest challenge.  But it has come full circle, from learning how to discipline to learning how to let go and love and accept, I've learned A LOT about myself and about our dynamic as the family unit we now are. 

I pray to whatever higher power there is every day to bless us with a long, happy, healthy life together.  I thank Him for bringing me Brandon and allowing me to see that I do deserve the best, and that I've found it.  He will make me happy for the rest of my life...and I'll let him.